Happy Birthday To Me! *mwahaha*
Oct. 25th, 2004 06:52 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
newmoonstarSo, today is my birthday. I did indeed do the hanging out at Barnes & Noble thing, which worked out very well. :) Before I went there though, I had a lovely jaunt at the lakeshore, which was wonderful, because the weather was incredible. Usually it's freezing cold and wet and cloudy by the time my birthday rolls around, but today was sunny, and relatively warm, and would have been downright hot in the sun, if it hadn't been for the strong wind. But god I love living on the bay on days like this. Hearing the lapping of the water on the rocks and the cries of seagulls is too wonderful. I never really thought of it before, but there are places where there aren't seagulls all over the place. I honestly could not imagine living somewhere without seagulls. On summer days when I go to the grocery store and they're all over the parking lot, it's like magic. Really it is. I love the seagulls so much. The sound of seagulls is the signifier of water, and it makes you think of all the good things that go with standing on the shore looking out over the water that streches to the horizon; it's like joy and peace and excitment and everything good and hopeful. It's one of the few things that almost makes you forgive the obnoxious paper mills enough to really love living here. :)
So, after all that good stuff, I look forward to a heap of presents (admittedly mostly from myself, but I feel I deserve to splurge a little since I'm 18 now, and I need a little consolation, because now I'm going to have to act like an adult at least some of the time! ;-D) and to a turkey which Mum is making, and which I'm very much against, but now that she's bought it, we have to eat it today or throw it out, so I'd better break out the cranberry sauce to make it palatable. Oh well!
Strangely enough, I really do feel older today. I always got depressed about birthdays before, because it represented another year gone in which I hadn't done something extraordinary or gotten famous, but I never really felt any different from how I'd felt before. Today, I feel older, but not in a depressed, 'oh I've wasted a whole year' kind of way, but in a more grounded, hopeful, 'what can I accomplish in this new year?' kind of way. I'm really liking that. :)
So, after all that good stuff, I look forward to a heap of presents (admittedly mostly from myself, but I feel I deserve to splurge a little since I'm 18 now, and I need a little consolation, because now I'm going to have to act like an adult at least some of the time! ;-D) and to a turkey which Mum is making, and which I'm very much against, but now that she's bought it, we have to eat it today or throw it out, so I'd better break out the cranberry sauce to make it palatable. Oh well!
Strangely enough, I really do feel older today. I always got depressed about birthdays before, because it represented another year gone in which I hadn't done something extraordinary or gotten famous, but I never really felt any different from how I'd felt before. Today, I feel older, but not in a depressed, 'oh I've wasted a whole year' kind of way, but in a more grounded, hopeful, 'what can I accomplish in this new year?' kind of way. I'm really liking that. :)
