newmoonstar | oh I'm sick

Christmas was lovely, but naturally, I would get sick the day after. Since yesterday my heart has been racing unconrtollably, my chest feels heavy and tight, it's hard to breath and I feel dizzy and winded whenever I get up. A friend of my Mum's who's a nurse said it was probably just a panic attack (brought on by WHAT I can have no idea, since it started while I was sitting calmly on the sofa reading a book), but it hasn't gone away, and in fact it feels very much like it did when I had pneumonia. CRAP. I do not want to have pneumonia AGAIN. Twice is freaking enough. And I don't have a doctor or health insurance at the moment, so I can't even find out for sure if it IS pneumonia or not! *insert screams here* I freaking hope it isn't, because if it is, the only way we might know for sure is if I die! Merry freaking Christmas!

If I didn't have a cause for a panic attack before, I sure as heck do now! Happy freaking New Year, too.

At any rate, I'm determined I shan't die until I've finished reading the Wimsey books. I've only got three left!!!

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